Just purchased my 2nd iTunes song. Its a single this time a guy named
Justin Nozuka. Of course I was interested when I saw he had the same name as me and he was Asian. check out his song. I think at the moment its my favourite song!
But im super cut because I can’t buy his album in Australia! Not even on iTunes! Only available in the US, UK and Canada! GRRR
I took a pretty hard hit this week. Not physically but emotionally.
Never really been in a place where I have felt so hopeless where giving up felt like the only option left. I asked myself why God this? Why did you have to make it so clear to me that it is your command that i complete this? Why is it that I know in 60 years time i would look back on my life, even if i was fulfilling the highest calling you have for my life, that I would undoubtedly regret it…? Why am I so far in that its to late to turn back and so far away that i can’t see the finish, like being in the middle of desert?
Why is it so hard at times to love you and obey your commands…?
I will never understand why…
John 14:15
“If you love me, you will obey what I command.”
Isaiah 55:9
“Just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than yours and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.”
but there is one thing i do know
John 14:23-24
23Jesus replied, “If anyone loves me, he will obey my teaching. My Father will love him, and we will come to him and make our home with him. 24He who does not love me will not obey my teaching. These words you hear are not my own; they belong to the Father who sent me.
Why do I bother to find loopholes in your perfect plan Lord? Sometimes I can’t help and think what a stupid creation I am. but.
Thank You Lord for Your Love & Grace. And thank You for my shepherd.
teach me to obey your commands.
edit to the title after reflecting over tonights sermon
yes it is 3:48am on a Monday morning… but thank God I dont have anything work or uni lectures related on Monday this week =D
But just finished tying up some loose ends with Ablaze Conference and man everytime something draws near to completion I just get all excited… then anxious and nervous because I realise that there is only
5 weeks! till it all happens
BUT STILL SUPER DUPER EXCITED!
and seriously… get to work with the most sacrifical people in the world. thanks everyone.
Should probably have started organising earlier. But just means we gotta pray harder and trust God to use our mess to bring out the best!
Note: thank you to everyone who has currently saved the conference comittees butt by willingly pulling together things they (meaning I) have requested at such late notice.
Your no longer unsung heroes, since i have sung about your goodness.
1. I finished teaching my very first ACDS class Foundations of Christian Living A
2. I finished attending my first ACDS class in about 1 year+ Principles of Prayer
Both had their very own unique experiences. When I found out I was teaching an ACDS class I was… really… in shock and horror. Eh… me… even thought it is such a basic class content wise I just felt that small voice that we often mistake for humility saying “you’re not good enough to do it…”
I soon sucked it up, rebuked the false humility and thanked God for the opportunity. So over the past 2 classes I taught I felt so out of my zone. As I taught I not only learnt alot about how to teach systemactially, I leanrt alot about my personal foundations and I was actually EXTREMELY encouraged and convicted through teaching the content. Man it was definitely God to ministered through me. And I can honestly say my first class went alot better than my second because my second one did one thing different. I didn’t wake up to have quiet time before i headed off. Man the difference spending 15 minutes with God makes!
Attending ACDS this year has definetly been a new experience. Yea i’ve been to HEAPS of CDS classes in the past but honestly i don’t remember much… cept for the sex talk in Foundations of Christian living B… because i was 13 and immature… and particular words just make young boys giggle.
But I attended Lisa’s Principles of Prayer class and man not only did i learn heaps about prayer! I learnt heaps about myself & not just in how little I pray but in how much I’ve grown. The hunger for the Word of God is so much more evident in my life than as not so far back as 3 or 4 years ago.
I shared about how I used to hear the voice of God so clearly back in year 11 when I prayed for people… but that soon turned into pride and into self-glory, in wanting to show everyone how ’spritiually intune’ I was by making the person I was praying for cry through my word for them. This ended up becoming a major shunt in my prayer life. I struggled to hear the voice of God and to even focus on Him during prayer. But through some personal cleansing and this class I’ve come to realise the pride in my life and am beginning to hear the voice of God more.
So looking forward to the final Heart of Praise and Worship Class coming up and attending Knowing God’s Will.
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